Happy Birthday

I hope you got your present and that you love it!  It's so you, and I am concerned about your shoulder and back from your current bag.  I know you're closed off to hearing this, but I love you and wish you the best in the upcoming year.  There is nothing worth celebrating if it is not this: that the world has produced a talented artist and kind man who excites people and inspires passion.  I know you want to dedicate your life to your work and I think it is so worth it.  You deserve attention, you deserve fame, you deserve to have all of your dreams come true. 

I don't know how to get through to you and let you know that you are the most special person I have ever met.  I don't know if you'll even read this email.  It's no secret that I want your love back in my world.  I would do anything.  I know I'm annoying you, but it's only been a month.  Gregg tells me I'm in denial.  I believe in the love we share and I AM 100 PERCENT CERTAIN I CAN BE THE ONE BEHIND YOU, to support you, to encourage you, to give you hope and belief. 

I'm worried about you.  I'm worried about the amount of stress you're under.  I'm worried that you're having financial difficulties.  I'm worried that you're burying yourself in work because you won't deal with everything I put you through.  If there's anything I can do, please let me help you. 

If you were to give yourself one birthday present I hope it would be this:  take a chance that love doesn't die.  Take the risk that something that seemed so true still could be.  I would promise you that it would be worth it. 

If you gave me one more chance I would make you these promises:

1- I would never again take your love or you for granted.

2- I would work every day to ensure that I never put your health, your career, or your heart at risk.

3- I would love you until the day.  I will do that anyway, whether you give me another chance or not. 

I've found a way to separate our phones, should you desire it, and I know there are things you've given me that you want back.  Anything I own you can have, as much as it means to me.  As much as it means to me to be able to look at things you've created, it means more to me to see you happy.  It does mean a great deal to me, and I would love to hold onto it.  You mean more to me. 

I've tried so many things to win you back.  I have tried romance, tears, sweet gestures.  I don't want to give up.  Please give yourself another chance with me.  You owe it to yourself to finally drop the armor and believe in the love you've always wanted.  It is right here waiting for you.

Happy birthday.